tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2780506856626441160.post1013985282648833318..comments2023-08-04T21:37:16.987-07:00Comments on (Gay) Mormon Guy: Scripture PowerDavidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03552740645279057549noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2780506856626441160.post-24961948308964684582012-12-07T00:28:15.626-08:002012-12-07T00:28:15.626-08:00I found your blog less than an hour ago and just c...I found your blog less than an hour ago and just can't stop reading. I keep wanting to comment with my story and this seems like the post to do it:) it's a really amazing story but I'm not a great writer so I probably won't do it justice.<br /><br />At 13 I started feeling same sex attractions but denied it. I knew it was wrong and didn't want to admit to myself they existed. I pretended to like girls even kissed a few jut to go home so depressed because I felt nothing. I wanted to like these girls but I just couldn't I would sit in a dark room wondering why me for hours. I didn't believe I could keep going knowing what I was feeling was a crime against nature. I hadn't felt the spirit in months I quit reading scriptures and praying because nothing worked for me. I thought I would have to struggle through this forever. All I get wanted was a wife and kids. To be able to truly love them. <br /><br />About a year Ago during our stake conference our stake presidency promised us if we read the book of Mormon everyday any righteous desire of our heart would be granted at this moment I knew this promise was made for me I felt the spirit so strong. For some reason it took me months to actually pick up the book of Mormon. I've been a member all my life and never read it cover to cover. After they spoke I told myself I'd never miss another day. I don't know why I didn't start reading that day like I promised myself I would so I just kept struggling. Life was a battle and I was losing. I never acted on my attractions but life was hard as I'm sure you know. In time I couldn't stop thinking ofthe stake presidencies promise from months before. But I didn't feel worthy to read. I just felt guilty all the time. I would lay there wishing I could change. I finally decided if this promise has any potential of actually working why am I not trying it. The week after I started reading things got better. Little things started to change. My relationship with my dad got better. I had guys I could just be bros with. I started to feel the spirit and I started to feel happy. I didn't see how huge of a blessing these little things were until I started to notice girls. It's amazing. For the first time in my life I see girls and I like them. I can honestly say I have a crush on a girl. The scriptures are true. I know it with all of my heart and when we listen to the guidance of our leaders we can be given true happiness. It's still a struggle everyday but the small feelings that are growing make every day worth it.:)Sam Jacobsenhttp://mormonboy33.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2780506856626441160.post-20464017572834995032011-02-24T18:46:03.635-08:002011-02-24T18:46:03.635-08:00I've found that reading my scriptures every mo...I've found that reading my scriptures every morning is helping improve my grades, but has also made me happier in general. I find myself to be more confidant, outgoing, and more likely to have a happy song stuck in my head all day.<br /><br />On days when I forget, things just don't go nearly as well, and I started slipping into depressing thoughts, like wondering what my ex-fiancée would be doing right now...<br /><br />So it's better to see what Alma was up to, than to dwell on things I can't fix.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com