For what if I, in being true, betray my own divine?
I think, far greater than being true to the warring soul inside, is choosing who I truly wish that soul to be. For without that choice, I may be true to myself, only to find that I am no one at all.
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I've believed that goodness was measured by actions. That by looking at my spiritual and physical resume I could determine if I was on the right path.
The important part, I thought, was the sum total of the things I had done. If I spent time in pornography, I could counter it with service and family and friends. The hidden deceptions of my heart I could expiate by making the world a better place. Every sin had a price that it could be bought, every guilt washed clean through the indulgence of a good deed.
I was wrong.
In the parable of the workers in the vineyard, Christ teaches that the determination of who I am, and not what I have done - and from thence my choice of eternal destination - is only based on one thing:
Which way I face.
It's the only thing that matters. That's the reason that apostles pray for strength in their dying days. Even men who have done miracles in the name of God can turn away from Him. It's the reason that God reaches out to those who sin. Those who have chosen darkness in the past can transform and exchange their lives for the light of Christ.
And I can only choose one.
"No man can serve two masters. For either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will hold to the one and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon."
- Matthew 6:24
If I sin and seek to hide or justify my actions, it doesn't matter how good I appear - if I work at the temple or hold a calling as a bishop or love my children or have made the world a better place - I am turned away from God.
And in the same breath, if I truly want to repent and choose to humbly submit my will to God, it doesn't matter what I've done or the breadth of my accomplishments. I am turned to Him, and His Grace can make me whole.
It takes incredible strength to submit to God. It's easy to take control of my life and to choose the path I take. It takes far more conviction and strength of soul to let Him guide my life and set the course of my faith. Those who submit to God are never weak.
It's my choice.
And, at the end of the day, it's the only choice that matters.
It doesn't matter how deep the pit
If I look towards the light
If I imagine sunshine
It breaks the darkest night
It doesn't matter how bright the light
If my face is turned away
In my shadow I cast darkness
And dim the brightest day
Both are always present
The darkness and the light
But I can only turn to one
Just one can be in sight
My resume of doings
My friends and my degree
Will never tell the truth
About the soul inside of me
At the end of life but one foundation
Shapes my day-to-day
Am I facing up to God
Or do I face away?
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