It's so easy to be bitter
When the world won't understand
When the people passing by
Don't think to lend a helping hand
It's so easy to be angry
When people walk away
As if friendship never happened
When we were best friends yesterday
It's so easy to be tired
When I've fought and bled and won
And the world, blind to triumph
Only sees a job undone.
It's so easy to be lonely
In a crowd of those I love
When their feelings stay below
And their topics stay above
It's so easy to be fearful
When I try to give my all
And find I traded hope for failure
Balance for a fall
It's so easy to be hopeless
When the world falls apart
And I'm left alone and brooding
With just a broken heart
It's not easy to be hopeful
But I know that God is real
And, somehow, there is purpose
In the way I think and feel
It's not easy to be faithful
But He gives me strength to try
And as I make it through one moment
Another one goes by
It's not easy to be loving
When it brings so high a cost
But love makes people better
They are better loved than lost
It's not easy to be zealous
When I'm never paid for zeal
But just believing in the future
Can transform the way I feel
It's not easy to be peaceful
But in storms I find respite
In whirlwinds, a nexus
In darkened ways, a light
It's not easy to be happy
Or to learn to really laugh
But that's what life is all about -
Finding joy along the path.
I don't think that life is easy.
And yet I still forget the cost of letting life choose for me how I feel until I've lost something I value - something beautiful I've found along the twisting, turning pathway to Heaven from the ground.
I am the author of my feelings.
But that doesn't mean it's easy.
I'm autistic, ex-bipolar, and attracted to other guys (gay/SSA/whatever). More importantly, I'm a son of God and faithful member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (Mormons). My life is usually amazing. This is my story of hope, happiness, and faith.
Wednesday, September 19
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I really needed to read this poem today. Such beautiful words, thank you for sharing, truly!
ReplyDelete"It's so easy to be lonely
ReplyDeleteIn a crowd of those I love
When their feelings stay below
And their topics stay above
It's so easy to be hopeless
When the world falls apart
And I'm left alone and brooding
With just a broken heart"
to those two paragraphs I can relate most to at this point in my life. Thanks for sharing. I hear ya, life is not easy
I loved your poem. It was beautiful and honest. It resonates with my heart. Thank you!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteWell done. Thank you for your blog.
ReplyDelete"it's so easy to be tired
ReplyDeleteWhen I've fought and bled and won
And the world, blind to triumph
Only sees a job undone."
The unseen battles of the soul- I can totally relate. It is so comforting to remember that we are known by our Father and Saviour and they , unseen but not unfelt, cheer us on. Thank you.